Prelude to a candidacy exam

I have never felt so tired before. I'm thisclose to getting gastritis due to my ridiculous caffeine consumption, and I'm physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted.
Sometimes I just feel like this is not fucking worth all the trouble, because I'm terrified of failing this test. I admire every single one of my committee members, and really do fear under-performing on the exam.

My frontal lobe feels so heavy all the time, sometimes turning into a headache. My neck and arm muscles get all achy and it doesn't go away, no matter if I sleep. For the first time in 7 years, I'm having despairing thoughts.

Lab dreams

I dream of a magical place you can crash if you're tired and on the lab. I would have nice napping areas.

With a clean and bright place to warm our food

a cool espresso machine...

And an awesome, albeit small, shower.

Seriously, it would take the same space as a normal office. And I'd sacrifice office space for this. They can even reduce the sleeping space to this:

It's not that bad in real life. We have the fridges and microwaves. I one of the labs I worked they even had cutlery, plates, glasses, an electric burner, and a dishwasher. But seriously, somewhere to nap and take a shower would be appreciated. even if means sleeping here

and showering here. Actually, this would be a nice shower to have in a lab area.